Below are the 15 most recent journal entries recorded in silenttomb05's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, July 16th, 2008
3:21 pm	This Shit How the fuck am I to deal with this burden that is on my shoulders? I mean its like everytime I look up there happens to be some new obstacle impeding my way as to coming to terms with what is. I dont know what to do anymore. It seems as if I'm doin nothing more that fadin into oblivion.C'est la vie. Until next time Current Mood: crappy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 2nd, 2007
11:05 am	The truth Noah was a drunk Abraham was old Jacob was a lair Moses had a stuttering problem Gideon was afraid Samson was a womanizer Rahab was a prostitute Jeremiah and Timothy were too young David had an affair and was a murderer Elijah was suicidal Jonah ran from God Job went bankrupt Peter denied Christ The Disciples fell asleep while praying Martha worried about everything Paul was too religious Lazarus was dead Current Mood: creative Current Music: They say-Common (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 14th, 2007
3:06 pm	Finding truths What has become of this realm in which those that we perceive as friends turn out to be the worst people to be around. It seems as though as we as a group progress, there are those would rather hinder and be stubborn and insecure. Be it as it may seem as those who have been falsely guided and blinded by they're own delusions. it's a shame to see good people go downward and become the vain of others existence. Sad to say but truth be told you have become the worst being in this place of being and will deteriorate further until nothing resides but malice and contempt. All I can truly say is look in the mirror and find your flaw before it overwhelms what little sanity you have left. Base your opinions on facts instead of what other tell you. Find for yourself what is true and what is false, and lastly don't do thing in spite, out of jealousy, or greed. Think before you act and all your endeavors shall be fruitful. Until the your anal retentiveness shall wreck havoc amongst your peers indefinitely. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: every you and every me-placebo (Comment on this)
Monday, June 25th, 2007
12:15 pm	To tell it all Well I guess that there have been some things that have transpired in the past, but I'm willing to make them work. To all that know me I am the epitome of a nice guy but to others...well lets just leave at that. I'm started to be concerned about certain things surrounding my day to day life. For instance, there lies a man who's anger rises with the tide and washes away his ties with all only to have complete and utter control over those he associates as friends and family. What is the source of this malice and rage? Why do you carry the burden of control and not percieve all as equals? Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Innervision -system of a down (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 10th, 2007
6:37 pm	weeeeelllllllllll Things happen to be moving at a descent pace for my Tuesday. I got up at 7:30 and was just all over the place. Cleaned the kitchen, cooked some pizza rolls, and found some resume templates for my mom. Oh be for I forget ASHLEY I CANT SEEM TO REMEMBER MY PHONE NUMBER CAN I HAVE YOURS. lol luv you lots baby. Anyway I just got back from boxing and I'm feeling like a rock and falling up the stairs cause I'm so blippin sore and hard. N E wayz catch you later. (falls through floor into basement) Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: check it out-beastie boys (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 4th, 2007
9:46 pm	drowning Is it just the mind that is used as a tool or shall it create a person that becomes fool? Having no clue what to do but sink further down further in the brew. Being blind to the signs that are hung over the eyes only for the mind to never seek what is warm but what is bleek. Love is not what you think. Believe the pain that rallies in your brain, because I'm tied to the tracks and here comes the train. Current Mood: cold Current Music: survivilism-nine inch nails (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 31st, 2007
1:23 pm	changing tides Wow it's seems like everything changes when I return back home. I mean my mom is back to her usual venting to Rico stage again and I'm soooo tired of hearing her issues that plague. I've become so fatigued from trying to look for additional work. It's like my energy is being siphoned away from me. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I haven't even seen let alone spent any time with ashley. ARGH THE HELL WITH THIS MINDLESS INSANITY THAT DWELLS IN THE CONFINES OF MYYY LABRYNTH. Current Mood: drained Current Music: capricorn- 30 seconds to mars (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 27th, 2007
7:36 pm	It's puts the lotion on it's skin Or else it gets the hose again Current Mood: blah Current Music: Liberate- Disturbed (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 31st, 2007
1:39 pm	ummm Well it seems asthough the more i come to terms with these ppl in my life there comes something else that complicates my realm. (SIGHS) Oh well zipity do da zipity day my oh my what a crazy day. :P lol Current Mood: amused Current Music: spaceships - kanye west (Comment on this)
Monday, January 29th, 2007
4:45 pm	ARRRRRRGGGGHHHH Blast these ppl that reside with me Blast this ailment that is in my stomach Blast the existence that happens to be this in my mind To hell with this bit I'm packing and leaving this realm to find my own Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: happy?- mudvayne (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007
10:43 am	sip swish swallow yell pass out YEAAAAAA! =P Current Mood: awake Current Music: system of a down - spiders (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 22nd, 2007
4:53 am	WTF?! OMG WTF!?!? My world is coming to a crashing halt with each day that passes. It's like everyday I hera something new about my family that makes me sick to my stomach. Urghhh this shit is so frustrating, I'm shocked I don't have grey hairs in my head yet. What are these ppl doing? Do they know how much this is messing with mental, I mean my grandmother is my aunt and I don't know who or what to believe about all the families skeletons.AHHHHHHHHHH The hell with it I'm goin somewhere, idk where but somewhere where I may clear my thoughts at least for the moment. PLLLLLBBBTTTTT to you crazy ppl. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Silenced - Mudvayne (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 13th, 2007
1:28 pm	These past months Okay everyone, I'm back and there has been so much that has occured since I first signed up for LJ,but I'm just going to highlight some of those events. - the real truth about my family -the dissolution of a several great relationships -the lost of loved ones -the destruction of my sanity -the horrid past relived and last but not least -the new beginning I can't really talkabout them at the time but when I do best believe it will be juicy as hell. Oh, b4 I 4get, I'd like to tell all my friends that are on here plz, plz, plz drop me a line. At least let me know you still remember the ghost of me, Ashley, Jeremy, Derek, Brittany, and Jasmine. Well this the poet signing off. PEEACE LOL (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 13th, 2006
9:00 pm	Fire and Brimstone What is this shit that courses through my vein? It feels like acid when it rains and all because of an idiot wanting to cause pain.The shit is squeezing the intelligence out of my brain and leaving something primal and sinister that could send anyones soul into the drain. But this is just the beginning for that unfateful soul that crosses my path.They will have the pleasure of tasting my blade cold and plain pierce and make love with their flesh and suck the essence of there heart's content dry. Finding themselves in a world unlike any known to the mortal mind and this may be so unkind but this is just a brief introduction into the fiery heart of fire and brimstone. Hell is but a fantasy compared to the desolate thoughts that course through my mind's eye.This is a place in which the complacent become ominous and dismal,a bleek and destitute place of residence in which all that fall will lay for all eternity. Is this where you really wanna be? In the sea that flows of your life source, your sangria? Then if you feel as though the tide is getting high then displace yourself from in front of my eye or you will for surely pass away and die. Current Mood: cold (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 11th, 2006
11:42 am	Turning Point Today is the day I try and ratify all these issues that reside within my family.Especially those matters pertaining to my mother,grandmother,and aunt. Hopefully I can quell this shit once and for all because this shit has gotten to old way to fast for my liking. You know as much as I love my family they seem never to pay attention to the big picture.The fact that as long as they keep feuding there will never be peace in the minds of the children,but they are too blind to see what these actions bring as consequences.I guess my life is going to be a trophy to them and that just fucking acinine. Anyway my girl Jas is going through a similar situation with her folks pressuring her to move out before her 19th birthday. It seems as though parents are starting not to appreciate the children that they bring into this world. It was never our choice to be here and now you treat us with such contempt and bitterness. It's just fucking ridiculous. But what can I say really. Ahhh c'est la vive. -The Raven Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)